“Thank you God for a second chance.”

When I was 12 years of age up to 16 I was always in and out of DFACS. When my mother did get me back I used to skip school. I was 16 yrs old when I lost my virginity to an older man. I lied about my age. At the time my sister was 12 and pregnant. I started from middle school going to eat breakfast and skipping with my little sister to go see her baby daddy. Well I met a 36 year old he invited me to his house with was a dope house called Trap. I met his other female which was pregnant. She left in anger. I was a marijuana smoker. I did not have any at the time and the lady whos house it was was smoking a thing called crack. I taste it and got hacked. Then me and the female started drinking that was the day I got hooked and even introduced to Alcohol Gin. Then I met his auntie and her husband and got introduced to powder and threesomes. Even pimped out by her. So when I found out she was pimping me I left and started on my own. I started getting locked up on Truancy and stayed violating probation. At 17 ended up pregnant and in prison. Baby got adopted and was at the halfway house when paper got served to me so I left the TC for a dude. Ended up going back to prison and my mother called and I went home. Got there and grandma died and went back into the streets. Then I went into Detox April 2019 I come to House of Cherith just to be in Atlanta and left within 3 days. Went back out and I got high some more while my mother had my daughter who is 4 now. I didnt learn until I hit rock bottom and kept getting into unhealthy relationships. Ended up homeless, used up physically, mentally and emotionally. I surrendered to God’s will and arrived on the 31st of March. Let all the unhealthy relationships go especially the last one where the dude I was talking to told me he didnt have anybody while I’m in detox. The female he was talking to at the time was my nurse. That was God doing for me what I couldnt do for myself. I wrote him, let him go and here I sit determined and ready to let my light shine, humble myself, grow willingly and have forgave myself and also now is growing in love with myself. Talking to family. Daughter is now 4, I’m in GED classes, I’ve set healthy boundaries. As well as allowing God to use me as a testimony to someone else. I’m Letting go and letting God. I love it. 

Ps. Thank you God for a second chance. 

Ain't no turning back or around.

- S